Well guys, after quite an absence I am back. To be perfectly frank I never left since I was managing the Video Vault for you guys but offcourse thats only background work.
Well alot has happened these last few months and I like to share it with you guys, after all you are always there for me and we are a close community, a real JW family.
Many of you knew about the situation concerning my dad, he was very sick and since Christmas day since he collapsed he was fully paralized - neck down. He was in agony since every touch hurted him very much, like a knife sticking into him. It was really hard for me and my family to see my dad suffer so much but I can tell you that he suffers no more, June 12th my dearly beloved father aged 53 passed away..
I have mixed emotions about this since 1 part of me really misses him but the other part couldn't watch him suffer no more and is glad he has gone to a better place.. My dad couldn't eat and was fed by these hospital bags that contain everything and go straight into your stomach. He could only drink water through a straw and that was it.
That particular morning the doctor called us at home, he was very confused and talking to himself and he had a 40 degrees Celsius fever . When we got in the nursery it was clear that he was very confused and in pain. Apparently the tumor he had wasn't removed completely since that was impossible and had spread over his entire body. One of these spreads was in the brain and was pushing his brain hence was getting insane if we can call it that. But from time to time I managed to get his attention and could have a very little talk with him, but he could only say yes and ok. Knowing that this might be the last moment I called talk to him I said what I wanted to say and so did my brother and my mother. I asked him man to man if he was in pain and if he wanted to stop the pain, he said he was in very much pain and said he wanted it to be over. A week earlier my dad indicated that if this might happen he didn't want to go to hospital or be in pain anymore, if his time had come so be it. So we stopped this machine that was feeding him at 10 O clock. After this his hands turned all blue and so did his face. At half past 11 just when the nurse left the room and with us 3 round his bed he gasped for air and blew he last breath. I had to cry since I knew he was gone but also relieve because there was no pain anymore for him. For the first time in 6 months (since christmas day) I could hold his hand, this was very sad...
My father was an organ donor, they took some of these organs and we got a letter saying which people received them and how they were ''saved'' and could live happily on. My father was cremated, he didn't want to be buried and the cremation was very sad but a good farewell. The room was loaded with people, it was sold out to say it like that, 150-200 people came.
We still don't know what it was exactly what my dad had and this upsets me very much, I still hope they do find out.. I am also gutted that I missed the JW meeting but Ill be there next time!
The reason I have waited so long to post this is that Ive been living like some sort of zombie since it happened but don't worry I am fine now.
I want to thank everyone on JW who have been so supportive and kind to me, I really don't know how repay you
Anyway there is also some good news, I have passed for my driving license and in 2 weeks time I will be going to University. I am going to study for management in the Automotive Branch if you were wondering
Thanks again guys, your the best!
Im still here, I haven't left!
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